Hi Sukki,

Looks like you have had a bad childhood but you have the courage to write about that.I feel happy for you.

Even i too had a bad childhood, There were always frequent fights between my parents and my childhood was spend only in fears of just looking out for love. I just wanted to be left alone, i hated loud noises, still even today i hate loud noises of people shouting at one another.

Looks like many things from childhood follows us even as we enter adulthood.

Many people do not recognise this trauma and this in turn reflects many decissions in adulthood. They become insecure very easily. They cry for simple things. They get bullied frequently.

Analysing deeply about my character too i was aware that i took up many characters from my childhood. It took me a lot of time to understand about myself and my flaws.

All i can advice to you is remain calm and be aware that your life is only in your hands. Its your journey of life and you are alone in this journey.

I can really understand how you feel and would have felt. Keep writing and don't feel lonley.

Just take care all will be well.